Life, sneaking up on me...

Although I've said this before, I'm sorry for the no show, but I'm here now, with the sudden urgency of saying it all, as if I didn't I won't be able to express myself later. Without further ado I'll get to it. Has it happened to you that you are so busy with being busy that you end up being too busy. And then life hits you, right smack in the face and you're stunned. Something like that happened to me this week, making me realize that I can't just take the expressway to hell by concentrating on work, the fact that I needed a lifestyle shift. I do not need a different life, I just need a different approach to living it. I need to do it because there are things that are important, that need to be done. I need to waste less time worrying about work and spend more of it on actually doing it so that I have time left to actually relax. I have spent so many hours of my life worrying that I won't have time, when I could have spent them working and then having actual time.
I need to stop stressing over things that cannot be controlled and start working on things that can, to exert control over life than to let it run free and wild. So that's where I've been. Trying to fix my life. Trying to keep that inevitable train crash to occur. I have no idea why I needed to put all of this out into the void, but I did, maybe the knowledge was too much to bear. That happens too, sometimes saying it, telling someone helps more than I would ever understand until I do.
I think the last sentence did not make any sense, but I'll just leave it there anyway.

That's all for this post. Ta!